I've been thinking often about the past... Too much bad stuff that controls the majority of thoughts and means that I've forgotten the smaller, most delightful, totally meaningful, heart fulfilling moments that can get lost amongst the day to day trials of life. Too much has been stolen, too much not cherished long enough, too much forgotten.
Those begining steps, the first rolls, trying to crawl. The first sight of your newborn baby. The innocence of small children. The delight in their faces when they see you. A smile that lights the entire face. The hilarious 'one sided' skips from a three year old.
Sure, it is easy to take a photograph, a picture tells a thousand words (or a zillion if I'm the story teller), but nothing can capture the heart-felt pure joy that grasps your inner being with gusto. Not fancy words, or delicate pictures, not a memory box or blog post. It becomes a distant memory that I hope never fades away, never completely disappears. It is a hope to hold onto for better times to come, for more of those moments, that remind us that we love, that we are loved, that we can feel joy, that we can feel peace, that we are important to other people. It is the moments that are occurring right now before our very eyes, are we not grasping? are we not paying attention? are we too distracted? do we have too much on?
I have too much I want to remember that happens everyday times 4 children and not enough time to blog (record) any of it. Well atleast that is how it feels. At times I have ridiculously blurry, out of focus, what-the-heck-did-the-light-do, photographs that are all I have to capture that perfect moment, and to me... it tells a story, a glorious story, my story...
5 Things I am Thankful for:
1. Stupid phone cameras that are really no good for anything
2. Blog, specifically MY blog
3. My body remembers the feeling, the glorious feelings
4. Memories, triggered by others
5. I dunno... but something..
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