As shameful as it is to admit - I "couldn't be bothered" throwing a birthday party for my two end-of-year-born kids :( yep, officially a bad parent.
I was all ready for one in Nov, but he woke up sick and we spent half the day in hospital. I was a bit fearful that day - fearing that this might be the last day of my sons life. I couldn't help it but its how I felt that day. Thankfully it wasn't.
With a birthday party cancelled and another three weeks later I just couldn't be bothered.
I'm not naturally talented in 'party planning' I'm more the rock-up-hoping-ive-got-all-I-need type person. So its not actually something I look forward to planning and preparing for.
The kind of planning I do occurs around 10 months prior to the birthday and gets forgotten. The actual planning gets done in panic a few hours before or the day before the actual party.
So, today my two end of year born kids had an (agreed upon) shared birthday party. It has officially been and gone for this year. I'm relieved.
For years now as a birthday approaches someone always asks me what I'm doing for a cake. Cake? Is it not enough I bought a presant? Yeah, I suck that much.
So, this party didn't quite go to plan, I wasn't overly impressed with guests, felt highly irritated by people wondering off to have a day sleep, all the food got hacked into straight away without asking me and being asked if we can have cake now while there is plenty of food left and everyone is still talking. It felt very chaotic and out of control. Yet nothing I could do about it. THAT is what happens when you marry a crazy man who has 8 more siblings. I was never warned. Ever.
And yes, even after all these years and events I still get overwhelmed from time to time. Today was one of them.
I'm exhausted now too. Rest is important and I havn't had enough. Emotionally exhausted. Physically exhausted. Spiritually exhausted.
*ahhh*
I am already planning on passing over 'party plan' duties for 2012. Who's keen?? Thanks in Advance Xx
The main point is that the children enjoyed themselves and that's where my concern rested.
Oh Yeah & if your invited to my surprise birthday party apologize profusely and decline the invitation. Then let me know so I can make sure all is cancelled prior to the time.
Kind Regards,
Amy-non-party-planner
Xx
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