I had plans in getting all my sewing done and dusted to reduce a giant packing box of stuff that sits taunting me in my bedroom.
As I begun to sew I thought this isn't really fun, no wonder it's sat for so long, why am I doing this?, I havnt needed this stuff for so long why would I need it now? Why do I have these items? Why was I saving tiny scraps of materials? Did I have plans for it? Where's my passion for that project gone? Wonder what this was for???
Whilst it was not a sustainable practice I threw all the scraps out, including the bigger scraps that I would not do anything with, then larger scraps I could do stuff with but won't.
I added into the op shop box a pile of woolen jumpers and articles of clothing that I have not upcycled into wool longies for cloth nappy purposes. I havn't needed them this far. I added in a pair of overalls that would fit my baby daughter that needed a button sewed on because I know that if I fixed it I wouldn't put her in it anyway because I put dresses on her.
I asked God to give me a passion for sewing or a nothing.. He gave me a nothing..
After I received my nothing I added the rest of my sewing plans to the bin bag or the op shop box. Sewing for the week done in one day with the reality that was all I would truly use.
Then I pulled out my Scrapbooking gear and was much more content.
I realized that the sewing was born out of a desire to be like my mum. See, my mum used to sew. She sewed clothes for us kids, crafty decorating things, quilts and she did mending. I remember being a small child and my mum did bulk sewing with my nana who was a seamstress. They made loads of stuff. Mum would hang with her women friends eating chocolate biscuits and kicking us kids out while sewing projects together. I wanted to be that mum when I grew up. But as it so happens it's not cheaper to sew for your children unless your after something specific like a modest dress or something flash. Besides that you need the time to go along with it. With lots of little kids this has not been an easy commodity to find.
I also realized that sewing (for me) is born out of the desire to save money.. Which I have over the past few years.. But if I am storing stuff to sew some day I'm not saving money, I'm spending money on things that sit for ages then gets taken to op shops. Stuff that needs to get packed up and moved when we move houses.
This was a revelation and truly humbling experience for me.. One I am happy to have had.
So there you have it, I am NOT a sewing mum and am content in knowing this..
Now I need to know if I should sell my overlocker, sewing machine and snap machine???
5 things I am thankful for to God for:
1. Journey of the week being not just about seeing
2. Having my needs provided for
3. Realization that has brought clarity to my mind
4. Being able to let things go - and being content to know I'm not that kind of mum
5. Having 8 more cloth nappies in circulation of being used
And having a huge packing box less of stuff.. Just as an extra ;)
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