What are you worth?

As I was reading a book last night called "please make me cry" (about a girl born poor whose mother was 14 when she was born, her father 17 committed suicide months before her birth, raised in a poor community with gangs and violence and drugs, who took up Heroin and became an addict) I thought about how a long time ago I wanted to help people, I wanted to make a significant difference in other peoples lives, I wanted to see people's lives transformed.

I suddenly started to become fairly depressed about the matter. I've not seen lives suddenly transformed, I've barely worked and not been in a setting where transformations occur at a dense rapid rate (like orphanages or rehabs).

I've not changed anyones life like that in a significant way!!!

And in toddles my baby walking towards me, huge grin on her face and the sudden gurgles of a proud walking baby who knows she is loved and cared for.

It was then that I realised that I am transforming the life of another, several actually. It was then that I realised that without me there would be four very lonely hurting mother-less children (assuming they are already born, which they are). Without me raising them (as their birth mother) they would need to overcome some grave differences in their lives.

See? I do make a difference in someone's lives. I am transforming lives everyday. The difference is the transformations occur slowly over time in leaps and bounds. Not suddenly over a day or week or month. The difference is there's a lot of tediousness that can go along with it.. Such as a never-ending supply of dishes, an ever-growing pile of washing and a steady flow of toys over the floor.
The difference is, these kids were born to greater privilege then the young girl in the book I was reading, they were born in to middle class, with married parents who (mostly ;) ) love one another and was totally smitten with their very being (albeit a bit painful to begin with ;) for me at least). They do not know poverty, nor do they associate with people who use drugs. Although they are quite young still ;)

So there you have it. I transform lives, I make a significant difference to others, I am extremely important in my position here. And if I am all that plus more, then so are you ;)

Have a blessed week xx