As I sit...

... here pondering all that is going on around and within me...

I hear the soft snoring of my newest babe breathing in her bed fast asleep and oblivious to the troubles in the world...

I hear the cries and clanging of my second last babe whimpering away while pushing a little people bus through the house...

I hear the noises of my first two born children... playing... outside... and no I have not given them permission to be out there... and I have little intention of returning them to the safety and (dis)comfort of our home...

It is hot, there is no breeze, I am tired, I am possibly over tired, I have been having night mares, and staying awake too long, I am emotional (der), and I have had enough.

I want to be still, to hear quiet, to feel peace,...

I want to not have little people touch me, or climb on me, or need me, or cling on me,...

I need patience,
I need meekness,
I need the deep-heart-feeling of love...

Instead I have 9% battery left, and an empty packet of cadbury easter eggs...