Regrets and Hardship

Two of the things that I (perhaps even 'we') regret doing after marriage is:
1. Not purchasing a home
2. Moving away from our 'home town'.

1. Not purchasing our own home right at the beginning meant no 'real us' within the home decorating wise and no real family photographs up on the walls. I know, I probably could stick nails in but I just don't.
But most disheartening is the fact it gets harder and harder for us to purchase our FIRST home.
It's meant that I am now pregnant with our fifth child and working 18 1/2hrs over 4 days/nights. Which is quite tiresome for a 1st trimester full-time homeschooling mum of 4 little ones. Sure I'm managing ok, but my first choice is staying home with my family.
This is sacrifice I'm doing for the financial security of our family.

2. Moving away from Michaels family, the church he grew up in, and a church I could have called my family church if I stuck with it longer, making longer lasting and deeper relationships with like minded women, mums, just like me.
Instead, we have had to stick life out with little-to-no support where ever we have been. And it's been divorce material. The fact we are still together is testimony to His Goodness and our failures.
When your on your own and trouble befalls you, without wisdom and advice from wise people means you can fall so simply into a bottomless pit of emotion rather than walk out of a situation with a clear vision of where and what your doing and going.

We havn't known the kind of support that we now have and get to offer to others.

Truth is, we are in a good spot right now. We are doing well, I am doing well, he is doing well, the children are doing well. We are not surviving, we are THRIVING!

Though I can't help but wonder if we could have been this great many years ago, if we had just stayed where we are now. *sigh*

Can't have everything can we..

And so I leave the family right before dinner time, feed other families deep fried goodies and do more house work in a few hours then I've done in a whole day.

My 'wise' advice? Stay where the support is. It's really hard to do life 'on your own'!

Yep, that's my current complaint in life ;)